For myself Patti when the pain or symptoms increased, I found this to
be a time to look forward to. Because it signaled change, and when these
symptoms subsided, I found that my condition improved. Most times the
improvement was slight but other times very noticeable.
Pain is pain and we all experience it differently. You can do nothing
but face it head-on and remember that if I or someone else can take it,
then so can you.
I remember waking in the night and just yelling as load as I could in
frustration because I was tired and in pain and knew I had to get-up and
into the standing frame so to stretch my legs so I could go back to bed
and get maybe two hours more sleep before I awoke again. A year and a
half before I could get over four hours continuous sleep. I thought I'd
go nuts and may have sense suicide was in my thoughts daily. But here I
am, still alive and glad of it.
It's so personal it's difficult to describe and no one can REALLY
understand what your going through but you. So any question about making
it [so to speak] is between you and the convictions that keep you going.
But just reaching out as you're doing says your not giving up. Your
just dam sick of being dam sick and I CAN understand that. And so do
many more here reading these poor expressions of feelings typed in black
and white. Words just are not enough when all seems so hopeless but
there all I have, that and my conviction that Gods loves you and will
make it all clear some day as to why your suffering so.
Regards and God bless Patti
Dave