Re: recovery thoughts
DC. Jones (jones(AT)tdl.com)
Fri, 02 May 1997 15:15:07 -0700
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> Well here I am again sitting around being bored and waiting. I just can't
> stand this no more and I'm not gonna be able to handle it much longer.
> Right now my legs are sore and I have no idea why they are. And anything
> that touches them makes them feel real weird. And now I'm starting to
> wonder about the way I could raise my leg because I could only do it when I
> sit back and my chair and really try hard other wise I can't do it and
> once I bring it up the tone kicks in and It takes a good ten seconds for it
> to come down. I just hate sitting around and waiting for things to happen.
> And if I can't walk I don't know what I'll do. I pray all the time but it
> hasn't came the way I wanted it to yet and I can't take it . You see befor
> this happened I was a wery active person allways on my feet and always
> running around and I can't do that no more. And I just don't know how much
> longer I can hang on. I just need some hope
Get out of that chair and get into a standing frame. I had an eight foot
by eight foot raised workout table in my living room for close to three
years. I drilled holes in the floor and walls so I could install anchors
to attach ropes to so as to tie my legs down where I wanted and I pulled
and pushed my body to break the tone in my muscles. It took four years
before I could stand ten minutes without my legs or torso spasmimg and
throwing me to the ground. I used to have a horse or two and when riding
if he wanted to right I'd make him go left, he'd want to run I'd make
him walk, if walk then trot and so forth and so forth. They may not of
liked me but they all were better saddle horses when I was done riding.
Do you get the idea? Break the tone! And as far as being active hells
bells of course it's easier to be active out of a wheelchair but dammit
do something. Go some where, make something, break something do anything
but don't sit there and think of what you used to do. You live like that
and you will lose. I'm making it and many others are too. This is not
easy! If we can do it, then why can't you? I;m sorry these are not kind
words but sometimes we need a good swift kick in the ass.//Dave