Re: hope of one sort or another
David C. Jones (jones(AT)tdl.com)
Fri, 07 Feb 1997 02:18:05 -0800
Bryan; let me start off by apologizing for my past postings. And try to
give you an insite to my private self: When I was first struck with tm.
Except for presure and light touch, I was completely parallyzed at t5.
Within 3 weeks I developed hyper tone, so bad I believed I could be
picket-up by my ankels like a broom handle. The cramping was
excruciating. A doctor I had never seen or meet, came into my hospital
room and sat on my bed and told me that what I was, I would always be.
One week later, I got one small muscle in my right leg twitch. And I
knew then that that doctor was wrong. It was eighteen months after I
came home before I could sleep more that four hours, without waking in
pain. The only relief I could get was stretching, that manifested into
an eight foot by eight foot workout platform and a standing frame in my
living room. I installed pulleys from the walls, the floor and the
cieling. I thought I would go out of my mind with the pain and lack of
sleep. But ever so often I would see inprovement and Hope would spring
anew. I came to realize that even the pain was good, compaired to
feeling nothing. Today although I use a wheelchair I can stand and move
every muscle in my body. I returned to my hobie of restoring autos. I've
changed engines and transmissions, replaced sheetmetal and performed all
the needed skills unabated. All this through my faith in Christ and the
Hope he has made availible to Everyone. I say cling to Hope where you
can find it. The white lie your family or friends may tell you, may get
you through that Bad day. And that's all you need, is to get through
that day. Let tomorrow go. If it's false hope to believe in the knowlage
of some doctor that tells you that you'll be fine. Is it any less to
believe in the doctor that tells you you'll never walk again. I say
Bullsh..! Some lab rat somewhere could stumble over the answer and bang!
It all goes away. Now, Don't Get Me Wrong! I do not condone deceit! But
sometimes things are said for reasons of need. There's time enough for
reality. And with time, healing of the body or spirit can take place. I
am sorry there is scaring on your spine. Just as sorry that there are
others reading these ramblings. I, and I'm sure you, wish we had never
heard of tm but here it is. I apologize for the length of this post. May
God bless you and heal you, my friend./ DCJones {Dave}