[TMIC] (TMIC)- Anxiety Attacks
Mandy Feka (5yearitch(AT)ozline.net)
Thu, 13 May 1999 20:02:39 -0400
The first thing that I need to do is apologize. My last two posts to the
list were very emotional,depressive, and gave a very poor impression of
my over all condition. I too suffer from depression and anxiety attacks.
I know the bull very well, but I guess I don't grab his horns as much as
I should either. There are several,very emotional issues in my life
right now, and I do apologize for making this an emotional dumping
place. I will ask for your understanding though, for myself and others
who may do the same from time to time. There are things in all of our
lives that are not TM related, and from time to time there will be an
emotional need to "let some of it out". I realize that there is a time
and a place for everything, and knowing that, I realize that I may have
alienated some with my emotional outburst. Last week was a very
emotionally stressful week, and I admit that I may not have handled it
as well as I know that I should. All of that being said, I am felling a
little clearer headed now, and not so "exaggerated and dramatic". I
realize that nothing has happened, or will happen that I can't handle. I
knew that then, but depression really does "sit down on you" sometimes.
I am trying to make my way from the wheel chair to the walker and cane.
I am up at least an hour a day, just to keep the right leg mindful of
what it should be doing,(it forgets). The process is slow and painful,
but I have full confidence that I can retrain this leg again. I still
have days and moments when it isn't there at all, but it is responding,
although it's late or slow at doing what I want it to. I have been here
before, and know what I did that worked, it is just harder this time for
some reason. It is not responding like it did before, and I know it. Is
it possible that a nerve damaged limb can regress permanently ? This leg
has been an ongoing problem since the beginning, I am just wondering if
it has worn out, or lost some of the nerve conduction that it had. I
don't have a doctor to ask right now. Thanks, Mandy