I think you need to let your doctor know that you are
feeling like this. You sound like you need some help
that meds can give you to help you see the progress
you've made rather than the loss you have suffered.
My doctor let me use St. John's Wort to help me with
my feelings of loss and it helped tremendously. Some
have to use meds. Either way you need a boost to see
that you are worth it!
Progress is in steps(no pun intended) that are small and
can be 2 forward, 1 back on somedays and 1 forward, 2
back on others!! You have to learn to take what comes
but with a fighting attitude!! and never give up!
Another note, quit feeling that you are a burden to others!
I'm sure they don't feel that way!!
Keep your chin up. Let us hear. JanH