There really isn't any magic time frame to walk away from TM. Some continue to
experience progress for years.
Regaining function is one of those odd things that no one seems to have an
answer to -- certainly physical therapy, exercise, working at it play a
significant part. Yet some go through all of that with no improvement. I guess
maybe it might depend on the extent of the damage to the spine. By all means
keep up with any of that that you are doing -- you are still within the first
year of recovery, and improvement certainly is still possible.
What is inside of you, your heart, soul, spirit -- that is the real you and
will always have value, no matter what is going on with your body. You were
left alive for a purpose, purposes both within you and through you.You may not
know what they are yet, but you will in time. Life is a precious, valuable
thing, worth clinging to. You mentioned being dependent: I don't know if
you're family is taking care of you, but, if so, I am sure they would rather
have you alive with them no matter what the condition than to lose you. That
is the way I would feel if one of my children or my husband were affected.
Maria mentioned the article on Jim Lubin. As far as I know, Jim's is the worst
case of TM on the list, yet God has worked in and through him to be such a
tremendous blessing to others.
I almost didn't respond to your note, Sacha, because I felt anything I could
say would sound feeble. But I hope you can detect the heart behind these
words. I hope, for you, as much as recovery as possible. But I hope and pray
also, that if this should prove to be "it"
(something we all have to face), that you will know to the depths of your
being that life is worth it and can still be good.
Love and prayers,
Barbara H.
In a message dated 1/22/99 2:17:56 AM EST, Manichel(AT)aol.com writes:
> I'm sorry to be depressing but i feel i have no else to turn to....
> My attitude has become increasingly worse. I feel a burden to society. I
don'
> t
> understand why I was kept alive if I am to be forever dependent on other
> human
> beings. I've had TM since May`98 but haven't had much return since Sept`98.
> Is this going to be it? Seems like a year is the magic timeframe to walk
> away
> from TM. I need to walk again...I need to use my hands. I can't handle
this,
> I
> find myself dwelling in self-hatred instead of getting better. please tell
> me
> how i can combat my sadness and TM. Those of u who have regained function
> please do tell how you did it.
> thanks for listening
> ~sacha