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> From: NMack92(AT)aol.com[SMTP:NMack92(AT)aol.com]
> Sent: Friday, December 11, 1998 6:28 PM
> To: tmic-list(AT)eskimo.com
> Subject: Woe is me!
>
> Group,
>
> I went to the nuero today. Now that I have been on zoloft for a month, he
> wanted to see how I was doing. I haven't noticed any real difference, but
> it
> is a low dose (50 mg). He doubled the dose before he tries neurontin. We
> also decided that I will see another neurologist to get a second opinion.
> The
> other Dr is the head of the MS clinic here. I have some misgivings about
> going to see the other doc, since I saw him before and he did not do me
> much
> good. To give him the benfit of the doubt (?) it was before they found
> the
> lesion. I don't see thim until March.
>
> Last weekend I was pretty bummed and scared. I woke up Saturday, Sunday
> and
> Monday with both my arms buzzing AND burning. I was also feeling weak in
> my
> arms and legs. By the end of Saturday my right arm was in a lot of pain
> and
> burning. Sunday night was better, but Monday was bad again. I was
> having a
> problem writing at work Everytime I put pressure on the paper it burned
> up my
> arm, not too mention the weakness. These are new developments for me.
> The
> only symptoms I would get in my arms would be occasionall tingling and
> numbness. Monday I was so consumed by my fears of this disease taking a
> bigger toll on me, during our morning staff meeting I snapped and yelled
> at my
> boss!!! In front of our whole staff!! Yikes!! He deserved it though.
> :)
> Luckily he is pretty easy going and I apologized later. Made for a very
> uncomfortable day. When I look back on it, I think it is pretty funny. I
> finally told my two bosses I have myelitis (after my review and raise --
> at
> least this disease has not yet affected my mind!!), but did not tell them
> a
> whole lot about it, so I don't think he attributed my "snappish" to my
> health
> at all. I hope some of you working stiffs who do not like their bosses
> get a
> kick out of that.
>
> I know these problems may seem so minor to many of you who have it so much
> worse than I do, but I really need you guys to be able to vent my worries
> and
> fears, not to mention to keep my spirits up. You guys are the only ones
> who
> can understand.... and I admit, I can only imagine what many of you go
> through
> on a regular basis. My heart goes out to you all. This is a horrible
> disease.
>
> Nancy (who is sorry to end up on such a downer note)
>
>