I went to the nuero today. Now that I have been on zoloft for a month, he
wanted to see how I was doing. I haven't noticed any real difference, but it
is a low dose (50 mg). He doubled the dose before he tries neurontin. We
also decided that I will see another neurologist to get a second opinion. The
other Dr is the head of the MS clinic here. I have some misgivings about
going to see the other doc, since I saw him before and he did not do me much
good. To give him the benfit of the doubt (?) it was before they found the
lesion. I don't see thim until March.
Last weekend I was pretty bummed and scared. I woke up Saturday, Sunday and
Monday with both my arms buzzing AND burning. I was also feeling weak in my
arms and legs. By the end of Saturday my right arm was in a lot of pain and
burning. Sunday night was better, but Monday was bad again. I was having a
problem writing at work Everytime I put pressure on the paper it burned up my
arm, not too mention the weakness. These are new developments for me. The
only symptoms I would get in my arms would be occasionall tingling and
numbness. Monday I was so consumed by my fears of this disease taking a
bigger toll on me, during our morning staff meeting I snapped and yelled at my
boss!!! In front of our whole staff!! Yikes!! He deserved it though. :)
Luckily he is pretty easy going and I apologized later. Made for a very
uncomfortable day. When I look back on it, I think it is pretty funny. I
finally told my two bosses I have myelitis (after my review and raise -- at
least this disease has not yet affected my mind!!), but did not tell them a
whole lot about it, so I don't think he attributed my "snappish" to my health
at all. I hope some of you working stiffs who do not like their bosses get a
kick out of that.
I know these problems may seem so minor to many of you who have it so much
worse than I do, but I really need you guys to be able to vent my worries and
fears, not to mention to keep my spirits up. You guys are the only ones who
can understand.... and I admit, I can only imagine what many of you go through
on a regular basis. My heart goes out to you all. This is a horrible
disease.
Nancy (who is sorry to end up on such a downer note)