<< I am litterally scared that I will not be able to find a lasting
love, following the diagnosis of this disease, and it was particularly
enlighting to see that it does happen! I find myself too scared to try,
again, which I know is probably due to "not being ready," however I am not
sure how I will know, until I try.
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Hi LZ,
I felt so compelled to respond to you because of what you wrote. I to do not
feel that I will find a lasting love and to this day feel the same way.
It was so nice to just hear that someone else feels the same way. I say this
quite often to my family as this is my outlook of myself or should I say this
is how I think someone of the opposite sex will see me. "Who would want a
single mother of three that can no longer work and is sick with epilepsy, TM,
herniated disk, and border line diabetes!" That is the package I offer. I
don't get on a pity party, I just say these are the facts.
My cousin says I look at it to grimly and negative. Perhaps she is right. But
again like you, perhaps I am the one not ready and perhaps I portray that.
Perhaps I don't put myself out there, although I say I do not want to be alone
for the rest of my life. I just don't feel like I can offer a whole person. I
feel like I would be a burden or that someone would see me as one. Do you feel
the same way?
I just feel like I have to be back to some kind of normal before I can
seriously put myself out there. Do you? Then I think, will I ever achieve that
or will I ever think that.
I know a lot of those on the list are with partners already, but I am
interested in everyone's input here.
Maria in Tonawanda who maybe thining to deeply.