Jeff:
My post to you was addressing my perception of your anger. My
assumption was based on your post about someone from the thread that I
took it was not interested in what you had to say? That being nothing
negative just good news or sugar coated and rah-rah responses?
I told you the story of my uncle because he to wanted it told as it is.
I feel he was a worldly man and when he couldn't make his world the way
he wanted. He turned his anger on himself. His wants out weighed the
needs of his wife, children and grandchildren.
I put your post and my uncle together when you said "all anyone wants
is "glazed over"' positive, don't hurt anybody's fragile feelings
responses...." My feelings on this mater are quite different. I feel
many peoples feeling are fragile, fragile to the extreme under the
pressure of the kind of illness you have to suffer day in and day out.
If someone wants it told as it. They just need visit there doctor,
they're experts at it. Gloom and doom is what I used to refer to the
doctors as and still do.
I am gladdened you do not have any destructive thoughts. I on the other
hand had plenty. If not for my young daughter and my mother having bone
cancer, I would have proceeded my uncle. I was afraid my death would
harm my mothers health and my baby needed a daddy. I clung to these two
thoughts {people} and attribute most of my being here typing now to that
sense of duty, so to speak.
I am sorry if I am off base here in my perceptions and posts. And if
you are still confused please email me and I will give you my phone
number and you can call me collect and we'll straighten it out. Sorry it
has taken some days to get back to you but I have been blessed with
being busy.
Your fellow tm sufferer;
Dave