Just babbling
RSharma650(AT)aol.com
Sat, 1 Nov 1997 01:50:53 -0500 (EST)
I have been reading through several of the TM postings in my mail list
tonight - I have not had the chance to keep up lately. So many times I
become so upset that I am no longer able to do the things I once took for
granted and then I come to find so many of you in the same position or worse,
and I am embarrassed. To those of you confined to a wheelchair I feel I have
no right to compare. What brought this all up? My girlfriend and I have
always worked-out together, running, swimming etc. Although she has been
very understanding w/ my difficulties I am having trouble accepting it. I
can no longer walk/run like I used to. Although I try - it just is not
happening - YET! (But it will). We now walk together and I get so frustrated
that I cannot keep up. She tries to encourage me but I get so upset and end
up directing my anger towards her. I guess I am not really looking for any
advice I know I need just to be patient, but I am nearing the one year
anniversery of my TM diagnosis and never thought it would last this long. I
can remenber being in ICU almost one year ago thinking how I needed to
recover in two weeks because there was a race I wanted to run in (I can also
remember being able to use my left hand properly to type). Needless to say,
I have not run in any races, but the typing is coming along! I am sorry for
whining, but thats why I subcribed to this list - so I could get it out to
those who truely understand. Now I gotta go patch things up w/ my
girlfriend. Thanks for reading!
RKS